Do you ever find yourself warning your kids about the mistakes that you made, hoping they don't make the same ones? Are you reading the latest parenting books and doing everything to be the best parent but still feeling like something is just not working? Then you are not alone. That was me, just two years ago. I launched my company about three years ago because I was sure I had all the answers about parenting teens. After 23 years as a teacher and constantly helping parents, I knew I could do more. Somehow I felt I was doing it all right and I only needed to share about what was already working for me. It wasn't long after, that my journey changed. I realized that in spite of the countless hours of research, when it comes to pain points, there are somethings that you just have to teach from personal experience. I learned soon enough that I was in for a big surprise.
It was Summer of 2017, my daughter was close to finishing her Sophomore year and she seemed to be a normal teenager, talented, modeling, teen pageant winner, playing the piano and well-known in school. I thought our relationship couldn't be any better; as far as I was concerned she was happy and I couldn't be any more proud. I was on the third year of my Parenting Coaching business and I was happy and confident of how I was showing up as a parent. All this shattered the day my daughter told me she didn't know why she was alive. She started having a panic attack and soon she was in the hospital without a diagnosis other than anxiety. I was unsure what was happening. I soon learned that she was feeling ashamed, ugly and not enough. I was devastated because I couldn't understand how this was happening to me. I felt I was failing as a parent and that even my business was a lie. My sense of inadequacy created a halt in my business and worst of all in my heart.
I was so unsure of what was wrong because I was following all the evidence-based techniques, innovative approaches, affirmations and activities that I could follow to ensure my parenting was exemplary. I was puzzled and my husband had no answers for me either. I had her go to therapy to address her anxiety and something inside of me told me there was more to be done. The answer was not more techniques or shrinks, it was looking within myself. This is when I discovered that I had work to do inside myself. I worked with a Spritual Coach who soon made me aware that I was not using my gifts. I new I had a God given gift, other than connecting with people. I have the ability help heal.
With this realization, I noticed that I would have to go through some healing work myself. Whoa! I was amazed to see the things that came up for me. My awareness of the weight I was carrying was unbearable. I knew that my daughter's insecurities were coming from me. She was my motivation to be open to this kind of work. In just a few short months, my daughter was operating at a whole new level. School was about to start and she was actually excited about her Junior year. Our conversations became deeper and she had a sense of confidence about herself that she still exhuberates a year and half later.
The answer was me! I realized that my thoughts of "not enough" had been weighing on me all along, like a heavy chain around my foot, since I was a little girl. It was that energy that she was picking up, regardless of what I was saying to her. At first, I thought it was because of I felt unwanted and ashamed as a teenager, when I got pregnant. However, I dug deeper, which led me to discover I had been carrying that fear of abandonment, ever since I was a child, when I found out my biological mom had given me up as a baby. Since then, the process of aligning myself led me to find my biological mom and heal the internal wound that I never even knew existed. I was able to do profound forgiveness and release an unconditional love that only actions could explain. I realized too that the shame was not even mine either, it was hers. It was that same shame that was not even allowing me to show up as I wanted to in my business and in life.
As a mother, today, I could't be any more thrilled. Since then, I've revamped my program ensuring the components of what it needs based on what worked for me and is working for many others. I know that when parents experience this, their children will reap the benefits. You see, I learned that as parents we need to support our children by helping ourselves first. I understand my daughter will probably make her own mistakes, but I rest assured she won't be making my mistakes or those my mother made. Ancestral healing is a process that I am grateful to have discovered. I am in a much better place and focused on helping hundreds of parents release, heal and live the life they want.
As my daughter and I discuss the next college application and homecoming dresses, I know how much she gets that she matters. She is happy and thriving.
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